Nasssstttyyyy

my feet stank!! its grossin me outt. I can, like, smell them and i feel icky.

oh well.. today was good. i had an English essay to write and it turned out to be really easy. SURPRISE!! it felt really good! And he told me he is going to get out Homecoming tix tomorrow!! yay! :) and tomorrow is MUSIC GENRE DAY and im going to be an eighties rocker chick. HEAVY METAL! so yeah, thats about it for now. I just want it to be Friday already! pooop.

peace with my stinky feet!

Sour Starburst

ahhhhhhhh!!!!! so sour!!!!! but i cant resist!!!!! mwahahahahahahahaha...


anyway, today was rather blah. my film didnt turn out when i developed it which put me in a kind of pissy mood. then i found out that i have to write a paper that i thought i was exempt from...and i just want it to be friday already!!!!!!

or at least thursday so i can watch the new episode of Pushing Daisies on my computer.


and i need a job. and i applied to Humboldt and Mills. BLEH. life seems so slow lately. i have all this extra free time and its overwhelming cause ive never had it before. im bored!!!

IRONY.

Snogging

:) :) :) :) :) i'm so happy right now! me and he exchanged a very intimate kiss!!!!! :) :) :) :)


but my happiness was quickly smothered by frustration and anger when i get home...and thats cause i live with SATAN. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! i get so fucking mad at her!!!!!!! everything i do, she has to criticize me and make me feel like a piece of shit. I mean, get off my friggin back! do you not have a life so you have to cling onto someone else's???? go away!!!!!!! sometimes (most of the time) i wish i could run her over with a car...or a tank. I know im being all teenage-ish right now, but i cant fucking help it!! you would be the exact same way if you had to put up with her crap (and the crap of people who let her get away with EVERYTHING) every single day.


lets just say that theres only less than a year till i can permanently move out and never have to see her or communicate with her ever again.

Really?

is my reply when my mom asked me that i looked depressed. i mean, i guess i dont feel completely happy at the moment cause my family is dysfunctional, but im not, like, "Im gonna cut myself" depressed. i havent felt that way in a while. feels good. :)


im so excited about homecomingggggg. Next saturday. PEACE.

i love lil wayne...his songs make my day. :P hehe. Cause bitch im tha bomb like tick tick.

im bored. and i finished my boookkk!!!!! yay. The ending was extremely nice...i liked it. :) i like happy, romantic endings. ahhhh, romance.

Ahhh Romance

isn't it lovely?

So I was watching the Tyra Show and it was about open marriages...it sounds kinda coolio. But what do i know ima freakkk.

:P

we're having corned beef and taters for dinner...yummm. Im excited. Food always makes me excited. Cause ima fatty. :D yay fatty peeps.

now my dads yelling at me cause i didnt do something to his specifications... poo head. I never do anything right in his eyes. sigh.

Jane Austen, here i come!!!!!

October First

That would be today. I'm so lameee... my moms getting another headache shot and its really annoying. Shes gonna be passed out for the next twenty-four hours. Growl. And my fone wont sent texts to Josh and its getting on my nerves cause i wanna talk to him, but calling is such an inconvenience and he doesnt have a myspace.

The good thing is that I get to go to the rennaissance faire on sunday...i hope it doesnt raaaiiinnn. poop. that would suckk. Im in a crappy, lazy mood right now and i have all of this energy building inside me and it wants to get out but my bodys all hell no and i feel wierd. :( sadness. and my aunties giving me really cool vintage boots and im excited. cant you just sense my excitement. i really am excited though, but my fingers are too lazy to press the exclamation point key.

ugh. im going to read or something.

Tomorrow is Octoberrrr

and im pretty stoked about it. 19 days til homecoming bitcheeessss. PEACE.

today i was bored outta my mind, but lunch was pretty coolio cause i had some very interesting convos with some pretty interesting people. :D but i did nothing in any of my classes. OH, i redid my scene for drama since no one knew what it was, so i decided to use a lightsaber instead, cause, ya know, everyone can recognize that right?? WRONG!! Either im a horrible actor or the people in my class are hella dumb. Prolly the latter. ugh. my sister is driving me INSANE...well, more insane than i am already. (!) shes so annoying, but i wont say anything else cause i can rant and rave about it for, like, fifty pages and still no one would understand how irritating she is.

my puppy is so cute. Sorry, hes sitting here all like "Pet my tummy" and im all "Okeeyy" and hes just the goofiest dog ive ever seen in my life.

Im going to go read Jane Austen because thats how boring my life is.

WOW.

Very Pleased to Meet You

Holy Moly. The ice cream truck is around the corner! :)

Anywhoo, today was interesting. I felt like a total dumbass in AP English because we took a quiz on figurative language and there was one question that everyone got right except for me because i misinterpreted the context. DURDURDUR. I feel specialll. :P Bleh. im so bored right now. And my ears are bleeding because i put my tapers in but i took them out again cause i dont want my mom to see them (supposedly i resemble the Devil when i wear them...) and they made my lobes split and they HUUURRRTTT!! :(

The ice cream truck just passed my house. I want ICE CREAM!!!!

Im such a spaz, i swear. *_*


Meh. I cant wait until Homecoming cause its my last one and its going to be bitchin! I have a date this year (who asked me out today, so i am no longer a single woman...sorry guys.) and im wearing my ZEBRA dress! fun fun. hopefully Sid will go with me this year sos we can get ready together. Like that one year when we glued feathers to our faces. Good Timeees. I think i have a picture of that somewhere...and today we were brainstorming in Creative Writing about articles we can write for the Watchdog. Here's my ideas

~Teen sex-how many teengers are doing it?
~Girls on the pill- maybe a poll to see how many at our school ALONE take birth control.
~Teen violence- refer to the fight last week...
~Future plans- how to get into college, or other things that kids might be interested in.
~Piercings and tattoos- how many kids get one behind their parents' backs?
~How global warming is just a trend for some people...
Personally, i could give a shit whether i go green or not. My parents can barely afford the necessities, so why should i worry about spending more on things that suddenly will save the planet? Its bull. If the planet goes under, then that means we have no more suffering, right? Ugh. Its become so trendy to be green...its just annoying. The girls in my grade who want to "save the planet" think theyre right and everyone else is wrong and screw them! Maybe we can focus on, oh, i dont know, the homeless people in Martinez or how some people dont have healthcare. "Global Warming" is the last thing on my mind.

Good day to you, sir!

Depression

So there was a fight at school today... ugh. I saw the entire thing, and it scared the SHIT out of me. This guy was whaling on this other guy, and he had like five welts on his forehead. Like the size of fuckin grapefruits. Anyways, i was standing there like "Oh My GOD! Someone needs to get in there and stop this!" I felt like if i went in there though, i would have gotten hit, so i just stood there like a deer in headlights. It made me sick. How can two human beings disfigure one another like this guy had done...and not even care? And the worst part...after school my sister brought it up again. She was all "Next time you see a fight, go and get someone, don't just stand there yelling like a spaz." And i was all, "Okkaaayyyy..." And then she said the thing that tore me up. "It was really funny though."

I went off on her. How the hell can someone think that was FUNNY!!!!!????? I felt like i was going to throw up all over the place. I could not believe her. So i told her that what the world needed was for all the people like her, who thought violence was fucking funny, to just leave the planet. Because the world would be a helluv a lot more tolerable.

Dreadlocks

So i tied string and hemp in my hair at various intervals throughout my head, and theyre kinda looking like dreads now... SWEET! this enthralls me. :)  

anyways... im in Redding (not at a wedding..) to vissitt my grampa who just got back surgery. :( but hes fine. Im glad im not sitting at home all weekend tho. that would be booooorrriiiinnnng!! 

ugh. So i brought both of my cameras with me and five things of film, so im gonna be pretty busy shooting an amazing "portfolioliolioliolio". Im just trying to get a lot of pics so i have an array of things im capable of. And im going to start shooting for my AP Portfolio. I think im going for the abstract theme...pictures of things really up close so you have no idea of just what youre looking at but it still looks cool. yeah. i need to get a subscription to National G so i can get ideas (and read about interesting happenings in the world). Yeeahhh... so im going to read, like ten chapters in Sense and Sensibility cause theyre really short and i need to read it for english. And then im going to see if i can get an  appointment to meet with the county coroner. SWEEEETTTT!!!  ;) 

September 17th

Happy Hump Day!!!! ugh. not really. i have to write an entire essay tonite that i was supposed to have started a week ago... oops. but i just didnt have any creative juices flowing in my brain. It seems i hardly do anymore. *sigh* oh well.

I really need to take the initiative to start writing my book. i have some really good ideas, like my life but with more drama (if that's possible...) i hope people will read it. Maybe i should make it all fantasy-like. Like Lord of the Rings... im havin a lotr kick lately...me and my mom rented the trilogy and are watching them together. Sid calls me a nerd, but i dont really care. I am a nerd. Sometimes.

ugh. life is so meaningless when you are by yourself. i mean, my dogs are here, but they cant talk. its kind of a shame. i wish they could talk. Lucy would be a pompous English lady. Kody would be a five-year old. Hah! they make me laugh... like cows. I want a cow. And now im rambling.

Stoopidd. I have DRAMA tomorrow!!! and PHOTO!!!! we have an in-class assignment, where we have to shoot our classmates, but none of my classmates are interesting looking. maybe i could put bags over their heads...haha! Im so mean. :) but yeah, other than that, not really looking forward to tomorrow. **SIGH LOUDLY.**

Second Day of Being Incredibly Sick

So I had nothing else to do...enter Floyd!! :)
I'm so sick it's so annoying. Let's make a list of the things I did today:
*Woke up at 6 this morning
* Threw up
* Went back to bed...woke up again at 9
* Ate toast and Sudafed
*Sat in bed all day watching FRIENDS
*e-mailed teachers to get assignments i missed
*Watched more FRIENDS
*Checked Myspace
*now typing a long list of super boring things that no one is interested in

I'm going to watch more FRIENDS...